You are in bad luck circle 5 more years. Marriage can help you pass this difficult time. Keep going east (to your job, school, friends), never west!!! And hear me: YOU ARE PERFECT! YOU ARE LOVED! YOU ARE A MIRACLE!
You are a troubled person and have much bad karma coming your way. You need to make amends for all the evil you have done. Apologize to those you have hurt. Life will not get better for you until you realize you cannot mistreat people and get away with it. What goes around comes around.