Those are just two of many, many reasons why lots of people believe there is no god. If you still think that there is some sort of god or higher power or spirits, ect. But you are struggling to accept what the bible says, why not take some time to research other religions? Maybe you'll find one that speaks to you and that you can embrace fully.
Whatever happens, don't let anyone tell you what to believe or that you are wrong in what your believe or that you shouldn't question what you've been told: Blindly accepting things leads to prejudice and hatred. Religion is a very personal choice, so don't follow a religion if it doesn't feel right to you. Best of luck :)