While we can only guess at which incarnation of God you believe in, look to the nearest Holy Book:
The Quran says, "Allah causes whomsoever He wills to stray in error, and sets whomsoever He wills on the straight path." This portrays a capricious, meddlesome God.
The notorious contradiction between freewill and an omniscient God might be cause to just resign yourself to the incomprehensibility of God's thinking, as per Isaiah 55:9 -"For as the heavens are higher than the Earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts". Likely why there is no Bible passage which praises human intelligence. Surely a handy passage for squashing inquiry.
Deists believe that a Creator being exists, but one who doesn't intervene in earthly affairs. Deists also reject revelation and authority as sources of religious knowledge.
Then we have Epicurus, who famously posited:
"Is God willing to prevent evil, but unable? Then He is not omnipotent. Is He able but not willing? Then He is malevolent. Is He both willing AND able, then whence cometh evil? Is He neither able nor willing, then why call Him God?"
You owe yourself a serious evaluation of what it is you believe; does it really make sense to you, does that even matter, or are there other ideals that might be more persuasive for you.
If there is a god, surely He could withstand the puny test of mortal scrutiny. If there isn't a god, then you aren't risking offending one by inquiring.